I feel like an electric drill is being violently plunged into my brain. This is completely harrowing. Everything here right now, it's so, so unbelievably bad compared to how it once was. I know this is only the tip. Every single fucking day I see, feel, or hear something that makes my brain tik. I get to see electrical boxes gutted for copper wires. It's so fucking bad that factories are not able to turn down crackhead metal. ALL governments here have sold out. I talk to a lot of people, and I love hearing about where people are from... I don't like to ask anymore. It's always depressing, all anyone talks about is remembering how good it used to be. I KNOW, I know that so many people are feeling it. This dread, this feeling of imminent disaster. No one here even knows how to express it. I mean how could we? What feels like overnight our society has 180 and all our founding principles are being attacked and replaced in favor of BROWN. We have decided that third world smelly BROWN is how we should live. My quality of life should be lowered to match the new standard of BROWN.
It's disgusting what happened to our homeland, I cannot help but adopt opinions that I never thought would be in my mind. There's a schism in me constantly, at least once a day now something happens to me that makes me clench my teeth tighter, makes me frown. "Ah, so they lied about this too"
I can't even trick myself anymore into a more liberal stance, a more nuanced approach like I used to. I have lost the luxury of not choosing. I will have to be a person that is going to make unbelievably tough and difficult decisions... I think we all are soon. I loathe lefty liberal metropolitan dystopian "15-minute walkable cities" that decide everything for everyone.
This whole shit show is going to blow soon, our federal government's Ponzi schemes are going to collapse at any second. What people have told me, what I have seen with my own two fucking eyes cements that it is only a matter of time. Do not FOR A SECOND think that they are not aware. I can say without a doubt that their stance this entire time is "We will fix it when it crashes" we are entering the brave new world of technological nightmares and they are totally okay with everything burning so it can be built anew for the next century.
edit: one thing that almost made me completely snap... I was walking outside, and spit phlegm. An old boomer woman slowly drove past and gave me a glare... "That's disgusting!" I could tell she was a person who voted for more homeless, more brown, more chaos... Just a week prior a crackhead charged me. It was the closest I have ever been to having a public outburst. It just caused something deep in me to completely change. This fucking communist would rather I be dead for spitting than removing crime and second hand meth smoke...
We just got unlucky, either flee or start getting ready to fight I don't think we have any other options.
