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[Betonhaus]

Yeah, whole wheat is like bad cinnamon candy now. It's weird.

that is weird. What happens if you kill your tastebuds with something really spicy?

 

[FrigginWeeb]

that is weird. What happens if you kill your tastebuds with something really spicy?

I don't know yet, but I'll try this friday. Discount chicken wings at safeway.

 

[Triple Flutz]

I'm still worried, as the facts about the original 'vaccine' indicate that it damages the immune system and makes you even more vulnerable to variants. Come to think about it I haven't had my flu shots in a couple years and haven't really gotten badly sick since.

If it helps at all, I only get the flu vaccine whilst pregnant and it's been a while as my youngest is over a year old, and I haven't gotten any of the coof vaccines at all and I am still deeply afflicted with this shit lmao.

 

[The Feline Solution]

Woke up at 5AM because my body seems to think sleep is for suckers, was about to lie down again and trying to get at least an hour or so of more sleep in because i got shit to do and don't like doing said shit when i am frazzled. The minute i lie down a fire truck comes screeching down the street, some cunt on the other side managed to torch his apartment. Total circus out there, my whole apartment is shaking because of the fire truck pumping water (i live ground level facing the street) and a horde of gawkers is standing, of course, right in front of my windows. Seriously, fuck this. Has been going for two hours now.

>Eating a cup of yogurt, trying to enjoy it
>Cat proceeds to vomit in front of me

Ah, the classics Did she proceed to nibble on the vomited chunks like mine does?

Edit:

Men take what they can get

I used to be like that until i finally internalized the concept of self-respect, which took me longer than i care to admit. I'd rather stay single or jack off than ever being with a fat and/or ugly girl again, i swear that shit does a number on your self-esteem. Madness i can deal with as long as it doesn't reach bi-polar, BPD wreck levels, a certain level of madness is to be expected in women. I am not a shining beacon of mental health and stability myself, mind.
The answer to the eternal women question is white, christian immigrant girls from mainly conservative countries, at least that is what worked for me these past 15 years.

 

[Harbinger of Kali Yuga]

Ah, the classics Did she proceed to nibble on the vomited chunks like mine does?

@Bargain Bin Laden would have mixed it into his yogurt and eaten it himself

I used to be like that until i finally internalized the concept of self-respect, which took me longer than i care to admit. I'd rather stay single or jack off than ever being with a fat and/or ugly girl again, i swear that shit does a number on your self-esteem. Madness i can deal with as long as it doesn't reach bi-polar, BPD wreck levels, a certain level of madness is to be expected in women. I am not a shining beacon of mental health and stability myself, mind.
The answer to the eternal women question is white, christian immigrant girls from mainly conservative countries, at least that is what worked for me these past 15 years.

Oh, I made that mistake once. Definitely wasn't worth it.

But more seriously I really have no delusions about relationships and you shouldn't either. Society has changed and they're a luxury product now, like a Rolls Royce. As far as I am concerned, a relationship is a three-to-four month affair and that's it. I couldn't imagine anything more at this point, world just doesn't really work that way for most guys. Society's understanding of itself hasn't yet caught up, and people are wrapped up in all the fiction stories and tales they've read that tell them how relationships work, but that's not reality. The reality is not long-lasting relationships but short-term serial monogamy.

 

[WTBOnlineFather]

After a fairly long period of nocturnal respiratory freedom, I spent the night with my old friend sleep apnea because I have a cold and I'm congested. Woke up badly rested with my head pounding and spinning.
On the bright side, 'tis the season and this was inevitable, so I'll get it over with before Christmas, at least.

 

[Blamo2000]

Bored.

Man, being stuck in a corporate meeting. Muh diversity, muh synergy, muh corporate word salad of sustainably. A single tweet has more information density than like 20 minutes of talking but not saying anything.

 

[The Feline Solution]

But more seriously I really have no delusions about relationships and you shouldn't either. Society has changed and they're a luxury product now, like a Rolls Royce. As far as I am concerned, a relationship is a three-to-four month affair and that's it. I couldn't imagine anything more at this point, world just doesn't really work that way for most guys. Society's understanding of itself hasn't yet caught up, and people are wrapped up in all the fiction stories and tales they've read that tell them how relationships work, but that's not reality. The reality is not long-lasting relationships but short-term serial monogamy.

Different reality for me. Going on the sixteenth year with my current girl and am pretty sure i'll stay with her for the rest of my life. Not married or planning on getting married. I always was a guy for more long term shit, my previous serious relationships were in the two to three years span on average. I had enough short flings without much emotional investment in my late teens and young adulthood to not care about quick pussy anymore and looking for something deeper instead.
I'd probably be completly fucked if i would have to start dating again in the present day, i live like a hermit and am a 5 on a good day, so meeting women IRL or online is almost a thing of impossibility for me nowadays.
Honestly, i think i would get my needs met by whores (whoring is legal in my country) instead of attempting another shot at a serious relationship if this one doesn't work out, i don't think i'd ever could be able of the same level of investment again. But, so far we are still going strong and i don't see that changing any time soon.

 

[Blobby's Murder Knife]

Again, you don't fully get it. Men take what they can get. They don't chose like you can, and you'll never have any idea of what that is like. We take what comes our way. We don't get to chose what women are into us, if they're crazy or psycho or whatever. Many of us can go years between dates.

I think if you think the market is any better for women, you are mistaken. You are confusing us having more dick than we could do with (as many men are absolutely unrepentant coomers) with that dick being attached to a man we want to have an actual real relationship with. The latter part much, much, much taller order to fill.

Again, I have no idea where you are finding these women and I strongly believe a huge part of the problem is you. I asked you before what you have to offer women and didn't give me any particular answer. So when you have nothing to offer, don't be surprised when you get nothing in return.

What do decent women want exactly? Short list of the top of my head:

*Employed
*Strong sense of personal responsibility
*Great sense of humor
*Interests in common and share a good number of common values
*Takes care of himself

It isn't an exhaustive list, nor is it meant to be, but that's basically what a lot of normal women want. Work on those things and you'll naturally start attracting higher quality women.

You often complain that women are vapid, but then you don't list what interests you have that make you such a special sneauxflake that you are above these women. Did you consider that some women are autists and might actually enjoy the same things you do if you bothered to look in niche groups for those things? I've never used something like Tinder or whatever in my life and simply look in shared interest groups. Some of the men are definitely better than others. That's just life. I don't get bitter or die mad about it. I just learn from it and move on.

Not married or planning on getting married.

I didn't think about getting married until I got married. Divorced now, but is what it is. I don't have anything against marriage and hope to marry again.

 

[Sniperwoof]

Beginning of the flu.

And so it begins.

 

[The Feline Solution]

I didn't think about getting married until I got married. Divorced now, but is what it is. I don't have anything against marriage and hope to marry again

For us it wasn't ever really a question, we are both somewhat introverted plus half of our respective family is dead (my side) or not on speaking terms (her side, for good reasons) so who would we be doing it for? We are also poorfags, so no idea how we could manage to throw a marriage party. Just marrying for marriage's sake at City Hall seems silly. It came up briefly in, i think, our fifth year but we never really spent much thought on it since.

 

[twisted cycle path]

@Blobby's Murder Knife Can you elaborate on what you mean by "shared interest groups"? I interact with a vanishingly small amount of women in the course of doing things I like and I'm wondering if there's not more potential there than I realized.

 

[Blobby's Murder Knife]

For us it wasn't ever really a question, we are both somewhat introverted plus half of our respective family is dead (my side) or not on speaking terms (her side, for good reasons) so who would we be doing it for? We are also poorfags, so no idea how we could manage to throw a marriage party. Just marrying for marriage's sake at City Hall seems silly. It came up briefly in, i think, our fifth year but we never really spent much thought on it since.

I got married for immigration reasons. The vast majority of countries don't give out boyfriend/girlfriend you figure it out visas and there was no other path. I have other reasons for wanting to get married at this point in my life though. Way back then though, that was the only one that was relevant.

I'd not pay for a wedding or reception either. I'd just rather it be us and officiant and we go out to eat afterwards. That's about it.

@Blobby's Murder Knife Can you elaborate on what you mean by "shared interest groups"? I interact with a vanishingly small amount of women in the course of doing things I like and I'm wondering if there's not more potential there than I realized.

What are you interested in?

 

[twisted cycle path]

I got married for immigration reasons. The vast majority of countries don't give out boyfriend/girlfriend you figure it out visas and there was no other path. I have other reasons for wanting to get married at this point in my life though. Way back then though, that was the only one that was relevant.

I'd not pay for a wedding or reception either. I'd just rather it be us and officiant and we go out to eat afterwards. That's about it.



What are you interested in?

Was into Magic the Gathering but stopped. Shooting, European martial arts/HEMA, vidya, backpacking and D&D mostly. MtG was the only one where I ever managed to meet an availiable woman but we didn't really mesh, and shockingly D&D is somehow still 99% dudes in my experience.

 

[The Feline Solution]

I got married for immigration reasons

Being both yuropeen, we luckily did not need to go down that road or else i would've been married to that girl after the first six months. That Schengen shit is one of the very few useful things the EU has to offer.

 

[Blobby's Murder Knife]

Being both yuropeen, we luckily did not need to go down that road or else i would've been married to that girl after the first six months. That Schengen shit is one of the very few useful things the EU has to offer.

I'm American and my ex was German.

I will say though, Germany has to be the easiest country to immigrate to through marriage. Like we just went down to the Auslandersamt with my passport and our Heiratsurkunde and they were like whatever, here is a 3 year permanent residency stamp and your paperwork to get a work permit and that was literally it. Took like an hour. Contrast that with when I brought him to the US and doing it the fastest way possible still took 4 months and massive amounts of bullshit.

 

[Nick Obre]

I GOT THE APARTMENT, LADS

I THOUGHT IT WAS A LOST CAUSE BUT I GOT IT

Oh my god what have I done now I have to fucking move god dammit stupid fuck

Different reality for me. Going on the sixteenth year with my current girl and am pretty sure i'll stay with her for the rest of my life. Not married or planning on getting married. I always was a guy for more long term shit, my previous serious relationships were in the two to three years span on average. I had enough short flings without much emotional investment in my late teens and young adulthood to not care about quick pussy anymore and looking for something deeper instead.
I'd probably be completly fucked if i would have to start dating again in the present day, i live like a hermit and am a 5 on a good day, so meeting women IRL or online is almost a thing of impossibility for me nowadays.
Honestly, i think i would get my needs met by whores (whoring is legal in my country) instead of attempting another shot at a serious relationship if this one doesn't work out, i don't think i'd ever could be able of the same level of investment again. But, so far we are still going strong and i don't see that changing any time soon.

As much as I'm trying to tell others to not be so blackpilled, let me tell you, I was 15 years into a relationship, 12 married and with a kid, when for no apparent reason other than boredom (no infidelity, no violence, no drama, not even a fight; I'll admit I've built an unexciting lifestyle, being a home-office freelance workaholic, but that's about it), the lady just up and got bored and ended it.

Don't ever get comfortable and take it for granted, not just in the bit cliched but wholesome terms of "never just coast on the relationship and stop valuing it and your partner, always put in the effort" but also on the side of "never trust that a woman won't randomly flip a switch and ruin your life".

Like you say, it's enough to put you off of relationships for good. I don't know if that'll ever change, but it's been over 2 years since the break and I just don't feel any interest in either flings or relationships.

 

[The Feline Solution]

I'm American and my ex was German.

I will say though, Germany has to be the easiest country to immigrate to through marriage. Like we just went down to the Auslandersamt with my passport and our Heiratsurkunde and they were like whatever, here is a 3 year permanent residency stamp and your paperwork to get a work permit and that was literally it. Took like an hour. Contrast that with when I brought him to the US and doing it the fastest way possible still took 4 months and massive amounts of bullshit.

Yeah, it depends from which country you are from, though. They have more of a critical eye on some lebanese dude marrying a german woman compared to a white (i assume), american woman marrying a german man. They got a bit more hard-assed after the last round of refugees, before the ukrainians, gamed our system too hard, though gypsies still get cash on hand to fuck off at the Ausländeramt.

 

[Blobby's Murder Knife]

Yeah, it depends from which country you are from, though. They have more of a critical eye on some lebanese dude marrying a german woman compared to a white (i assume), american woman marrying a german man. They got a bit more hard-assed after the last round of refugees, before the ukrainians, gamed our system too hard, though gypsies still get cash on hand to fuck off at the Ausländeramt.

I was informed there were likely some wayicsms involved with my processing. I just thought it was really funny if true. It was true on the other end too. The likelyhood of our marriage being fraudulent in the eyes of the USCIS (our immigration service) as we were both huwhite from rich western countries was very low and our application was expedited.

Like you say, it's enough to put you off of relationships for good. I don't know if that'll ever change, but it's been over 2 years since the break and I just don't feel any interest in either flings or relationships.

It took my mother and stepfather 20 years to remarry after their respective divorces. There is no reason to rush into anything when you aren't ready to do so whatsoever. I'm sorry about your divorce though. That sounds brutal. At least I knew what was coming in the end. After many years of marriage, we became fundamentally incompatible. All the things maybe we wanted at 20 we didn't want at 40, that kind of thing. Is what it is.

Was into Magic the Gathering but stopped. Shooting, European martial arts/HEMA, vidya, backpacking and D&D mostly. MtG was the only one where I ever managed to meet an availiable woman but we didn't really mesh, and shockingly D&D is somehow still 99% dudes in my experience.

Shooting gun or bow or both? I shoot rifle and recurve (barebow). I've seen other women at the ranges.

 

[CoolFool]

That's the type of day where you need to stay in bed or you end up losing your keys, your wallet, or in hospital. Hope tomorrow is better!

That's exactly what I ended up doing, staying in bed reading KF lol

Ah, the classics Did she proceed to nibble on the vomited chunks like mine does?

Yes, which made the whole situation seem worse, but it's funny looking back on it now.

@Bargain Bin Laden would have mixed it into his yogurt and eaten it himself

Why must you bring such unpleasant mental images
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I'm not cursed today like I was the other day. In fact, things are "good". And yet, I feel really weird. I don't know how to describe it. I don't feel sad, or annoyed, or depressed, anything like that. But everything feels...fake. Idk a better word to describe it. I'm doing my usual day to day stuff, and I just have an overall feeling of "this shit isn't real is it?"

I thought meditation would help but it hasn't. Today just feels fake and gay.