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[Some Badger]

It is a special kind of saddness when you realize you aren't the person you thought you'd be by now.

I think about this multiple times a week. Younger me would be greatly disappointed...

My birthday is on Monday. I will be yet another year closer to 30 and I don’t feel like I’ve gotten my shit together at all. At this point, I don’t think I ever will.

 

[Nick Obre]

What the fuck are you people doing giving girls you like rosaries, of all things?

Are you medieval monks or some shit?

 

[MARlNA]

I have been dealing with a shitty stomach bug for the past couple of days and it really sucks ass.

 

[Heckler1]

I think about this multiple times a week. Younger me would be greatly disappointed...

My birthday is on Monday. I will be yet another year closer to 30 and I don’t feel like I’ve gotten my shit together at all. At this point, I don’t think I ever will.

Honestly, my 30th birthday was a couple months ago, and it is a weird feeling. I do take some solace in realizing everyone my age (in my eco bracket) seems to also still be figuring things out. I'd say you still have plenty of time to figure stuff out, and not to create self fulfilling prophecies for you own success,

 

[Basil Julep]

I think about this multiple times a week. Younger me would be greatly disappointed...

My birthday is on Monday. I will be yet another year closer to 30 and I don’t feel like I’ve gotten my shit together at all. At this point, I don’t think I ever will.

I got my shit together in my late 20s and a few years later it all fell apart. Started again, new job, friends, partner, etc. And it was pretty awesome. And then it blew up again. I've had some pretty damn good years even though things are sucky now they are looking up from last year.

I have some bitter disappointments but I'm hoping that in a couple years I'll have addressed those things and it won't be so immediate.

I don't know if the idea that you will have ups and downs is comforting at all, but also the people you are comparing yourself to will get promotions or laid off, married and cheated on, broken up. Family spats. Some may even troon out.

Wow what a shitty pep talk. Hang in there!

 

[Sergeant Major Buzzkill]

A little sad right now, to be honest. That kind of sadness where I want to (most likely) burst into tears or snap into a bitter rage. There seems like there is no light at the end of my tunnel and no matter what, I can’t seem to find my way out.

The superficiality of where my life is at, coupled with people I personally don’t like dealing with (why I continue to interact with them, I don’t know, but it seems there is no way around it), and in an environment that is not freeing is making me think I’ll be at the end of my rope.

Will things get better? Maybe; maybe not. Maybe a bit of pain, a bit more (actual) sweat and tears can make me feel more alive. We’ll see. I just don’t know where I’m at right now, is all.

Will probably limit how much I consume the news and such because I’ve been in a bit of a doomer mindset whenever I tend to puzzle shit out.

 

[Local Fed]

Are you medieval monks or some shit?

What kind of question is this? Even Null runs this site from a remote Serbian monastery.

 

[The Cunting Death]

One of my classes requires me to do calculus and I've literally never learned it before so i feel stressed a bit but overall besides that doing great tbh

 

[Foltest]

Have moved back after being abroad for over 3 years.
It feels weird to be back home and knowing that you are not going back.
Am now starting with preparing for the course that I have applied to in the autum and getting back into study mody takes a while (haven't studied math in over ten years for christ sake) but I will handle it.

 

[Brain Power]

I don't want to look at SQL tables for a good while. Just what were they THINKING with that assignment they gave me?!

 

[A Grey Cat]

So apparently I didn't get that busser job like I thought. Yesterday was just a "trial " like an audition to see if I have the potential to be taken on as an employee. Two other guys are coming in today and tomorrow for theirs and with the holiday weekend I won't know for sure if I got the job till Tuesday. If they don't call by 8pm on tues then I call them to find out wether or not I got the job.

It's always the waiting thats the worst part I swear.

 

[Yamamura]

Lately I've been cycling in my spare time almost everyday this week. I find that it forces me into a state of mental clarity to start thinking about thoughts I've tried to bury in the back of my head. About life, about the world in general. Feel like I'm hitting a crossroads in life because I've reached a certain age.

 

[Robert w'E'd Leef]

My new boss is French and even though he's fluent in English and pretty nice & easy going, I still think he's a frog dickhead. I hate having to decipher his accent

 

[Plunkie]

I've been doing pretty good the past two weeks. Been running outside daily, which is a first. Figured I'd save some money by eating the cooked food I'd frozen in the freezer. Then a wave washes over me and I remember it was all food I cooked with my ex (see "losing people to transgenderism" in deep thoughts). And I've just been in a daze the rest of the day. It's been a few months out since the breakup and I thought I was getting better. Ya don't miss the person they are now, you miss the person they used to be. Shit's frustrating.

 

[JosephStalin]

One of my classes requires me to do calculus and I've literally never learned it before so i feel stressed a bit but overall besides that doing great tbh

Don't sweat it. If you can add, subtract, multiply and divide you can do any math there is. Started with Basic Mathematics and progressed, course by course, to Calculus. This was many years ago, suggest there are things online to help you learn calculus.

 

[The Cunting Death]

Don't sweat it. If you can add, subtract, multiply and divide you can do any math there is. Started with Basic Mathematics and progressed, course by course, to Calculus. This was many years ago, suggest there are things online to help you learn calculus.

thanks for the ounce of confidence

 

[JosephStalin]

Honestly, my 30th birthday was a couple months ago, and it is a weird feeling. I do take some solace in realizing everyone my age (in my eco bracket) seems to also still be figuring things out. I'd say you still have plenty of time to figure stuff out, and not to create self fulfilling prophecies for you own success,

Got news for you, and everyone. Am well into my seventh decade and still figuring some things out. Figure I'll be figuring some things out until the minute I die.

Life's a set of targets that keep moving. Think you have achieved one target, then things change. Life is continual change. Suggest all you can do is know that and stay flexible. Keep using the brain, use it or lose it. Keep your mind sharp even when your body ages, and you'll be able to handle the changes of life. Read, write, think. Minimize the TV. Let the books and the computer complement each other. Stay in command of your life. And never take anything for granted; tomorrow isn't guaranteed for any of us.

 

[Ughubughughughughughghlug]

In general good, but I just finished a bad vacation with my parents so feeling on edge.

Spoiler: Gay venting blogpost

I came up for the Summer to visit my parents again. I've grown to hate my life down where I live enough now that I just try to stay up at home as much as I can. Last time I was in a really good mood and so was my Pa, and they were reluctant when I left. So I came back in the same mood, but one of my brothers fucked up again getting arrested drunk driving and so from that day on, going over a week, my Pa was real pissy, bad mood towards everybody, not worth talking to.

Then we went on our trip. It was a trip he pitched, like a place he wanted to go to, but pissyness continued on the way down. First day (two full days) we spend most of the day sitting around the hotel room, they're old and he takes forever to do things. Everything you'd do in the town closes by 4 - 6 but it's past noon and he isn't even dressed. I go back up to my room to wait, and am thinking how I probably don't want to bother going on any more trips with them because it's paying for hotel rooms just to sit around and do one thing a day because they have no energy for anything and won't even go out before late afternoon. Wouldn't want to go along unless I bring my car with me.

Well, apparently after putting up with over a week of his shit, me going back to my room to wait (not even complaining/asking about leaving) was considered so heinous by him that he swore he'd never go on another trip with me - which I only knew because my mom decided to drop that on me in the middle of a museum. At that point I'd had enough of it that I was bristling with anger for the whole rest of it.

The kicker was that he had this attitude like even though he was the one who thought up this thing, and never presented it like it was for me, once it was on in his mind it was all for me and them implying the cost of it was for me, but I could have done what was a three night, three person thing for about $100 as a daytrip on my own and seen more stuff than with them along.

TLDR my father suggested a trip, came on it with a bad attitude, got really pissed at me over nothing, ruined the mood for the rest of the trip

 

[Some JERK]

Finally got the 'rona. It's fine. Couldn't taste anything for an afternoon. Nothing bourbon and cigars didn't fix. Now I'm just getting random waves of minor nausea here and there and my neck hurts a little, but beyond that? I've had worse from falling asleep on the couch with my mouth open.

 

[Local Fed]

Did an interview this morning and received a job offer; solid enough pay, solid hours but it's something kind of busy, demanding and stressful while being something that I'm not particularly keen on.

I've been holding out for something else which is far more oriented towards what I want (including where I'd like to be in terms of a career and location down the line) but at the same time I can't just wait around not having an income in hopes that I'll get a call. It doesn't help that I know I almost certainly won't be getting news on the latter today or over the weekend with it being Canada Day weekend.